{"id":5203,"date":"2012-04-06T18:00:08","date_gmt":"2012-04-06T22:00:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.irawagler.com\/?p=5203"},"modified":"2012-04-06T18:00:08","modified_gmt":"2012-04-06T22:00:08","slug":"the-hallowed-halls","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.irawagler.com\/?p=5203","title":{"rendered":"The Hallowed Halls…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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It is to have the old unquiet mind, the famished heart,
\nthe restless soul; it is to lose hope, heart, and all joy
\nutterly, and then to have them wake again\u2026<\/p>\n

—Thomas Wolfe
\n______________<\/p>\n

It was an ordinary Tuesday a few weeks back. Mid morning. Busy at the office, the phones were ringing right along. And then Rosita beeped me. A guy on hold asked for me, wanted to talk. Some Dr. Helton from Vincennes University. OK, I said. She transferred the call.<\/p>\n

This is Ira. And the pleasant man on the line identified himself with just a smidgen of a Midwestern drawl. Dr. Richard Helton, president of Vincennes University in Indiana. Vincennes University. My alma mater. The place I graduated from in 1991. A place of many good memories for me. Still, I\u2019d pretty much lost touch over the years. Dr. Helton, after a few brief pleasantries, launched into the reason for his call. <\/p>\n

Somehow, they had found my book. Someone on the faculty there. And someone with some influence had lobbied hard for me. So I was placed into the running, \u201ctaken into consideration,\u201d I guess they call it. And somehow, I had won, all the while blissfully unaware that anything was even going on. And now, after the votes had been tallied, after the Board had reached a decision, Dr. Helton had called to tell me the good news.<\/p>\n

On Saturday afternoon, April 28th, 2012, Vincennes University will award me an honorary doctorate. <\/p>\n

It didn\u2019t really hit me right at that moment, what that all meant exactly. Although I was pretty floored. Of course, I said, I\u2019ll be there. I\u2019m flattered and honored. I\u2019ll be there. I asked whether any of my old friends, my professors, were still teaching there. Mostly not. Most of them have retired or moved on. After chatting amiably for another ten minutes, Dr. Helton said so long and hung up. I got up, too, and walked around a bit. My head was spinning. <\/p>\n

An honorary doctorate. Just what the heck is that, anyway? I thought back over the years. I have graduated from three different institutions of higher learning. Vincennes University. Bob Jones University. And the Dickinson School of Law. At all three of those graduation ceremonies, someone had been awarded some sort of honorary degree. And I remember yawning, along with pretty much every other graduate. Come on. Stop wasting our time. Get on with the program. We\u2019re here to graduate. Please, no long speeches. Give the guy his honorary degree and get him off the stage. That\u2019s how we felt, mostly. And now it was my turn, to be the reason others thought those very thoughts. I guess what goes around comes around. Sometimes, anyway. <\/p>\n

From here, from where I now am, it\u2019s a pretty cool feeling, though, whatever one might think. Very cool, to be honored like that. <\/p>\n

And I think back to how it was back then, in those days. When I first realized that I had a shot at actually attending a real university. A goal that had never even reached the status of a dream. It was too far out there, too impossible to even be on my radar screen. College? Me? I had an eighth grade education. Never had a day of high school. How would it be possible to enter, let alone graduate, from college? <\/p>\n

The winter of 1988-1989 was tough for me in many ways, which isn\u2019t that surprising. I\u2019m a glutton for tough times, seems like. This was just one more in a long string. It\u2019s not like I was alone, exactly. I mean, there was support around me, as I settled into my post-Amish world in Daviess. <\/p>\n

But always, it seemed, something hard rose to confront me. That winter, I was reeling from the abrupt loss of a relationship I desperately wanted to work out. It did not. Instead, it collapsed into dust and ashes around me, because I could not speak my heart. The whole scene was pretty brutal. I\u2019ve never written about it before. Not publicly. One day soon I will, maybe. I\u2019m far enough away now, to speak of it without wandering too close to the edge of brooding darkness. At least, I think so. <\/p>\n

And over that winter, I hunched down and absorbed the bitter pain of a loss such as I had never known. It was probably more intense in my mind because of how alone I felt. And how alone I was, really. In my new world, my new life in Daviess. It\u2019s not like I could communicate much, not like I could really trust anyone around me, to talk to. Mostly because I didn\u2019t know how. And somewhere, in the spasms of that pain, the shadows of a plan came to my mind. Leave this behind. Strike out into a new world. Get your GED. That\u2019s the equivalent of a high school diploma. Get that, and maybe enroll at Vincennes in the fall.<\/p>\n

I wasn\u2019t sure just what all was involved. I couldn\u2019t imagine taking the tests for my GED without some preparation. I made some calls. There were classes one could take, at the local high school in Washington. Tuesday nights, if I remember right. And a week or so later, I walked in and enrolled. Tentatively, a bit scared. I don\u2019t remember the nice lady\u2019s name, but I remember how helpful she was. Oh, yes, she said. Yes, yes. Come on in. We\u2019ll analyze where you are. Take some placement exams. We\u2019ll figure out what you need to learn. And we\u2019ll teach you what you don\u2019t know, so you can get your GED. And go on to college. Vincennes will take you. Don\u2019t be afraid. You can do this.<\/p>\n

Grateful for her words, I took the placement exams. And amazingly, in pretty much every category, I was already at college entry level. Except one. Math. I had a strong but basic eighth grade education from the Aylmer Amish school. Since then, I had devoured countless books. I had read and read and read. Much trash. And some good stuff, too. But who goes out and learns math on their own? A math brain, I guess. Which was most definitely not me. Still, I was astounded and emboldened. I could do this. And so I began attending classes, there in Washington, Indiana, to learn some basic elements of math. And to polish up my writing. <\/p>\n

And after a couple of months of attending those weekly classes, I took the plunge. Went in and sat for my GED tests. I don\u2019t recall many specific details of that day, except I was fairly confident. And when my scores came back, they were good. Actually, in a very high percentile. The nice lady smiled and congratulated me. She knew I could do it. This is the beginning. Now go enroll at Vincennes. Here\u2019s all the information you need, to do that. And so I did. Enrolled at a real university, for the fall of 1989.<\/p>\n

That summer was my first full summer here in Lancaster County. And it was a time of sweat and labor. I toiled in the dust and heat from dawn to late afternoon every day, five or six days a week. Working construction, building pole barns. It was one of the most intense and healing summers in my memory. I wanted to work, to save money for college. And I wanted to work to forget. I labored long and hard, to leave behind what was lost and to lay up for the future. And those three months were amazing, looking back. A mixture of so many emotions. I knew what was behind me, I\u2019d just walked from there. There was no way I could possibly envision what lay ahead. <\/p>\n

Three days before my 28th birthday. That\u2019s when I walked through the doors of Vincennes University as a student for the first time. Clutching my new bright blue Jansport backpack, sagging with textbooks, I entered the halls of the Humanities Building. That\u2019s the stuff I had signed up for, mostly. English. Literature. History. Speech. And one lone remedial math class, way across the campus. <\/p>\n

And it was a magical and frightening time. Magical, because of the new possibilities that suddenly seemed so within my grasp. And frightening, because of where I\u2019d come from. I was a simple ex-Amish man, with not a day of high school under my belt. That\u2019s intimidating, any way you look at it. And yet, here it was before me. All I had to do was walk forward through the open door. College. The real thing. A world that called to a deep place in my heart. And to me, it was pretty much a miracle, this university. Vincennes University. A two-year school. The gateway to my journey through a world I had never dared to imagine. <\/p>\n

I lapped it up from the first day. Timidly, I took a seat in my first class. Way in the back of the room, which would forever after be my most comfortable spot. World Lit, with Dr. Rodgers. A frail little wisp of a man, not that well spoken. But very knowledgeable. He hemmed and hawed and welcomed us. This semester, we would be exploring this theme and that theme in our studies. We\u2019ll be writing a paper every month. The syllabus described our course. Syllabus? What was that? I\u2019d never heard that word before. Had no clue what it meant. <\/p>\n

I would soon hear a lot of words that I had never heard spoken before. Words I had read, words the meaning of which I knew full well. But there\u2019s a difference between reading a word and hearing it used in actual conversations, properly articulated. I cringed at the way I\u2019d been pronouncing some of them. And I listened and learned. <\/p>\n

That first semester, I signed up for what was considered a full load. Fifteen hours. English I. History of some kind. Literature. And a few other classes I can\u2019t recall. But it was the humanities, the reading, the writing, that side of the brain that was my strength. And I walked naturally through those doors, the doors that seemed to call my name. I was new here. Didn’t know who or what I could trust. So I went by instinct. <\/p>\n

And to me, it was like a smorgasboard, the university. It was as if I were seated at a table groaning under the weight of a great feast of so many mysteries I longed to touch and taste. And feel. I eagerly read the assigned literature. Completed the writings on time. I was serious, focused and hungry, and that was soon plain to those around me. Within a month, all my professors knew my name, knew who I was. And to their credit, every single one of them recognized and welcomed from their hearts this student who had emerged from the backwoods of the \u201cpeaceful people,\u201d the Amish. Every single one. Their doors were always open to me, and I soon felt calm and comfortable enough to just stop by and chat. To talk of things. To pick their brains. I was right at ten years older than the average college freshman. I\u2019d lived ten tough years of life most of my classmates had never seen and probably would never see. And to me, it was a huge privilege just to be there. <\/p>\n

After that first semester, fifteen credit hours were not enough to occupy my mind. The second semester, I took eighteen hours. And in my second year at Vincennes, on a full merit scholarship, I enrolled for twenty-one class hours both semesters. Sure, this was a junior college. Not a four-year school. Not as rigorous. But for me, well, I could not have found a more perfect launching place. <\/p>\n

To me, Vincennes University was a shining city on a hill. <\/p>\n

For what it meant to me, for what it did for me, for what I learned there, Vincennes University will always hold a special place in my heart. Always. And now they want to award me an honorary doctorate. Put me in a robe, and a mortarboard cap. From thenceforth, I can call myself Dr. Ira Wagler if I want to. <\/p>\n

Which is strange, actually, and kind of funny. It\u2019s never been my goal, ever, to get a doctorate of any kind. Never. It\u2019s never been even a remote thought in my head, to be able to call myself Dr. Wagler.<\/p>\n

And I won\u2019t, except maybe in the odd instance where doing so might open an otherwise closed door. Then I might. Other than that, it would be a bit presumptuous, I think. To call myself that, or expect others to.<\/p>\n

But you bet I\u2019ll go to Vincennes University on April 28th. You bet I\u2019ll be honored to attend. To walk the hallowed halls of academia again. To tour the old grounds. And you bet I\u2019ll be grateful to accept the honor they are bestowing upon me. With all its pomp, and all its glory. I\u2019ll revel in every minute. Soak it up. In a robe, and tassled mortarboard cap. Make a short speech. Oh, yes, it will be brief. And then I\u2019ll return to my rather mundane life, back here in Lancaster County. Marveling at the strange way things come down sometimes. <\/p>\n

I can\u2019t help but wonder what\u2019s around the next bend on this road.
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\nThe book is still roaming around out there, in some pretty elite terrain. I wrote about it, a month ago. How Amazon reduced the Kindle price, and how Growing Up Amish<\/em> rocketed into the stratosphere. All through March, the eBook hung in there. In the top 25, mostly. Dipped and rose and dipped again. The highest spot I ever saw was #13. In all of Amazon Kindle. I am grateful that since returning to regular pricing on April 1st, the eBook has hung in there in the top one hundred. <\/p>\n

And last month I wondered when it would show up in the bestseller lists. It was the top selling nonfiction book on Amazon, that was pretty clear. Would the New York Times recognize it? I didn\u2019t know. And so one day, I cautiously asked Carol. She didn\u2019t know. She didn\u2019t think so. OK. I won\u2019t look for it. <\/p>\n

And no one saw it coming, three weeks ago, on the Wall Street Journal\u2019s bestseller list. Number eleven. A week later, number three. No one saw it. No one from Tyndale. And not my agent. I was unaware that such a thing even existed. The Wall Street Journal bestseller list. Who would? Apparently no one in the publishing world knew, either. <\/p>\n

It was so haphazard, the way it all came down. Last Saturday morning, an email from a friend. Hey. Your book\u2019s number one on the WSJ\u2019s bestseller list. Congratulations. Sure, I figured. Number one in memoirs. <\/p>\n

And that afternoon, I stopped at a friend\u2019s house for coffee. Hey, check out your copy of The Wall Street Journal. I think my book\u2019s listed there. We looked. And we found it. Growing Up Amish<\/em> was the number one eBook nonfiction bestseller, period, during the week ending March 25th. The New York Times didn\u2019t recognize that fact, because my book was priced at a promotional discount. But the Wall Street Journal counted the raw numbers. I was number one. I stared. Then I took a picture with my iPhone. There aren\u2019t too many higher pinnacles than that. <\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Today is Good Friday. A holy day. Growing up, we always observed Good Friday. I can\u2019t remember if it was a fasting day in the Midwest, but it sure is here in Lancaster County, for the Amish, which mostly means they don’t eat breakfast and then have a large lunch. Many businesses shut down, including Graber Supply. So we got the day off. It seems strange, because Good Friday is not an official holiday. The banks are open. The mail is delivered. It\u2019s like, why are you open? This is a holy day. <\/p>\n

And on this holy weekend, I wish a blessed Easter to all my readers. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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