{"id":588,"date":"2009-01-02T18:00:24","date_gmt":"2009-01-02T23:00:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.irawagler.com\/?p=588"},"modified":"2009-01-02T18:00:24","modified_gmt":"2009-01-02T23:00:24","slug":"my-new-kentucky-home","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.irawagler.com\/?p=588","title":{"rendered":"My (New) Kentucky Home"},"content":{"rendered":"

photo-2-small.JPG<\/a> <\/p>\n

You can never go home again, but the truth is
\nyou can never leave home, so it’s all right. <\/p>\n

—Maya Angelou
\n_____________________________________<\/p>\n

It seems a little strange, to call a place home. When you\u2019ve never lived there. Guess it stems from societal norms. Home is where your parents live. Regardless of their age, or yours. My parents moved to the remote little community of Mays Lick, Kentucky about a year ago. A distant unfamiliar place. <\/p>\n

We headed out for “home” with Big Blue Friday morning. My brother Nate and me. I had never taken my truck on any kind of road trip before. Planned on it, last summer. But the $4 per gallon gasoline put a stop to that. <\/p>\n

Not this time. Gas is cheap. So Big Blue it was. We loaded up and hit the road by 6 AM. After hitting Rt. 283 in Lancaster, it was four lane all the way to Kentucky. Traffic was generally light. Not much going on the day after Christmas. Only a few big trucks, not enough to clog the roads. I sipped my coffee and set Big Blue\u2019s cruise control for almost the first time ever. <\/p>\n

The truck rocketed along smoothly. Nate sat reclined in the passenger\u2019s seat and slept. 81 South to Hagerstown. 68 West through Cumberland. On to 79 South in Morgantown. I stopped for gas. Checked Big Blue\u2019s mileage. Right at 17 mpg. Not bad, considering all the hills and mountains we\u2019d crossed. <\/p>\n

Nate took the wheel for a spell. It was good to spend some time \u201ccatching up\u201d with him. My youngest brother. We had not seen each other since some quite unfortunate events unfolded in Florida, back in early 2007. Almost two years. We\u2019d talked and texted. But not seen each other. That\u2019s a long time. <\/p>\n

After a leisurely late lunch at the Cracker Barrel, Nate\u2019s favorite, in Charleston, we arrived in Maysville, ten miles north of Mays Lick, around late afternoon. Checked in at the very nice Hampton Inn and settled in for a few days. Since my parents and brother Josephs had company that day from another settlement, we decided to wait until the next morning to head out. <\/p>\n

The next morning around 9, we drove in to my brother Joseph\u2019s farm. Dads live in a nice double wide, attached by deck to Joseph\u2019s new house. Nice little setup. One thing about the Amish, they know how to take care of the elderly. Without stuffing them into nursing homes. Joseph\u2019s wife Iva has lupus, so their new house was designed with her in mind. Mostly one level, hardwood floors, very nicely laid out. After looking around, Nate and I headed over to my parents\u2019 house, across the deck. <\/p>\n

Dad sat at his desk, Mom on her recliner, reading a Pathway magazine. They welcomed us in. Dad of course recognized us. I wasn\u2019t sure Mom would, but she did, immediately saying our names. To date, she has always recognized all her children. <\/p>\n

We sat on the couch and visited. Yes, our trip was fine. Yes, we were staying at a motel in town. Somehow, Mom couldn\u2019t grasp that fact and kept telling us we could stay in the spare bedroom. <\/p>\n

They both looked well physically. The ravages of Alzheimer\u2019s have taken their toll on Mom, though. In the course of a single day, she resides in many places, mostly from her childhood.<\/p>\n

I asked her if she remembers the \u201cJuniata\u201d song from her childhood, and hummed the tune for her. She remembered a line or two, but couldn\u2019t get a full verse. Dad then told us that Mom had started singing an old childhood song about the sinking of the Titanic. It just came back to her. She hadn\u2019t sung it in decades, and never when we were children. At first, she could remember only one verse and the chorus. Then one morning the second verse emerged. Dad hastily wrote it down and made copies. Now they sang it together sometimes. <\/p>\n

Nate and I immediately requested that they sing it for us. Dad shuffled around at his desk and extracted some blue papers, on which he had printed the song. He limped over and sat down on the rocker recliner beside her chair and gave her a copy and told her to lead. Nate and I sat there quietly, ready to go where we\u2019d never been. <\/p>\n

And without any fuss, Mom began to sing. Dad joined her. Her clear soprano shook just a little, and his rich baritone cracked and trembled. But it was beautiful to hear, and a breathtaking sight. Silhouetted in the glint of the mid morning light, they sang:<\/p>\n

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It was a Monday morning, just one o\u2019clock
\nWhen the great Titanic began to reel and rock
\nAnd the people began to cry
\nSaying, Lord we are going to die.<\/p>\n

Chorus:
\nIt was sad when the great ship went down
\nIt was sad when the great ship went down
\nThere were husbands and wives, little children lost their lives
\nIt was sad when the great ship went down.<\/p>\n

When they built the great Titanic they said, what can we do?
\nThey said they\u2019d build a ship the water can\u2019t go through
\nBut God with His mighty hand
\nShowed the world it cannot stand.<\/p>\n

And then it was over. The last echoes of their cracked, quivering voices faded. Nate and I sat mesmerized. It was a rare sight, a golden moment. For both of us. We had never seen our parents sitting together, just the two of them, singing a song. Ever. <\/p>\n

Spontaneously, we clapped and cheered. Mom beamed. <\/p>\n

Mom no longer cooks, so at lunch time Nate and I left and returned with broasted chicken and biscuits. Dad, Mom and Nate sat at their small table. I ate on the kitchen island. <\/p>\n

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We left so Mom could take her nap, returning later in the afternoon. That night, we provided pizza for everyone, including Joseph\u2019s family, eating at their new house. Later I walked my parents across the deck to their home and sat and visited with Dad awhile. He asked about my writing and commented positively on some of the blogs he had read. He doesn\u2019t read them all. He usually gets hard copies of certain blogs a few weeks after post dates. <\/p>\n

He allowed that \u201cLevi and Noah\u201d<\/a> was among the best he had read and I had written. Probably because it was pretty bland and noncontroversial. But I appreciated it. He’s my Dad and his opinion counts. <\/p>\n

I said good-bye and took my leave. Nate and I headed back to the motel, where we talked late into the night. The next day, around mid-morning, I left for home in Big Blue by myself. Nate stayed for a few more days, then traveled back to Canada from there. <\/p>\n

It was a good trip. I mused over events as I drove. We had been genuinely welcomed home. Our parents were glad to see us. We talked and visited without rancor. They ate the food we provided. They sang for us. <\/p>\n

And I reflected on those moments. And the pitifully few similar moments I have ever experienced. How hard I\u2019d tried, years ago, to break the barriers to my father\u2019s heart. How I’d craved his recognition and blessing. And Nate too, had tried so hard, for so long. In anguish. All to no avail. <\/p>\n

Until we just gave up. Told ourselves it didn’t matter. <\/p>\n

But it did. And always will.<\/p>\n

So much was wasted, so much lost. <\/p>\n

The moments we had just shared could have been the norm for all those years, not the exception. But only now were they possible, in the final years, after the ravages of age had quietly removed the impenetrable barriers imposed by centuries of mindless traditions of harsh cold shunning. <\/p>\n

It\u2019s sad. And tragic, really. But it is what it is. And even at this late stage, those mom-ents are something. Something tangible. That we can take and turn in our minds and examine. And treasure for what they were. Things that will likely not survive for long in their memories. Especially Mom\u2019s. But they will live on in ours. Because in the end, they happened. Against seemingly insurmountable odds only a few short years ago. <\/p>\n

In the final analysis, that\u2019s all that matters. And it’s enough. It has to be. <\/p>\n

Because all else is vanity, a chasing after the wind, a deep hopeless yearning to change the past that is set in stone and can never be undone.
\n__________________________________________________<\/p>\n

In football, things shook out last weekend. The post season is set. Slurp, slurp. Three of the most dangerous teams to watch: San Diego, Indy, and yes, the thug Eagles. All are peaking, two are coming off very mediocre seasons. They have nothing to lose, no expectations. Which makes them all the more dangerous. Minnesota and Arizona are insipid sacrificial lambs, and will be promptly slaughtered this weekend. <\/p>\n

My buddy Favre pulled his usual stunts for the Jets last Sunday. Three interceptions. So the very next day the Jets fired not Favre as they should have, but his coach. I\u2019m scratching my head in disbelief. Idiots. Eric Mangini is a genius, a prodigy of the evil Bellichek. Whose vile Patriots were denied the playoffs, thankfully. The only good thing that resulted from the Jets\u2019 loss.<\/p>\n

Well, it\u2019s 2009. Seems strange, to write it. 2009. Next year the double digit rolls in. On New Years Eve, I stopped by Paul and Anne Marie\u2019s for supper and hung out for awhile. Anne Marie met with her doctor earlier this week. Not surprisingly, the tumor diagnosis is the same as last time. Malignant. They are discussing treatment options and will make some decisions in the coming weeks. <\/p>\n

I returned home early and spent the evening watching football. Midnight came, and the ball drop. Dick Clark has got to go. Since his stroke a few years back, the man\u2019s face is frozen and he slurs his words. You can\u2019t understand him. Yes, I know he’s been doing the countdown since prehistoric times. And it’s tragic, his stroke. But they need an anchor who can talk. <\/p>\n

Happy New Years texting was fast and furious for awhile before I went to bed. <\/p>\n

New Years Day, I slept in. Went to Sheetz for my free coffee, then to the Leola Fire Hall to pick up the traditional New Years meal of pork and sauerkraut. For eleven bucks. Fundraiser, and all. I\u2019m not a big fan of sauerkraut, but it\u2019s edible at least once a year. <\/p>\n

New Years Day is college football. All the bowl games. The Big Ten has not been doing well, but Iowa crushed South Carolina 31-10. Some Midwestern pride there. Penn State was soundly thrashed by USC in the Rose Bowl, 38-24.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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