{"id":6771,"date":"2012-09-07T18:57:17","date_gmt":"2012-09-07T22:57:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.irawagler.com\/?p=6771"},"modified":"2012-09-11T09:47:53","modified_gmt":"2012-09-11T13:47:53","slug":"bob-jones-and-me-sketch-16","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.irawagler.com\/?p=6771","title":{"rendered":"Bob Jones and Me (Sketch #16)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Which of us has not remained forever prison-pent? Which
\nof us is not forever a stranger and alone?…We seek the
\ngreat forgotten language, the lost lane-end into heaven\u2026<\/p>\n

–Thomas Wolfe
\n_____________<\/p>\n

Twenty-one years ago, I packed up all my earthly possessions, which consisted of a fairly meager little pile. A sparse assortment of clothes, a few dress pants, jeans, a few dress shirts, and a couple of suits. And a couple of boxes holding a decent collection of books. And many boxes of odds and ends, the dust of living. More than enough to fill a car. And I loaded all my stuff into my ugly tan-gold T Bird. I felt it in my head and heart, the loss of leaving the familiar. But I had accomplished all I could here. It was time to leave the land that had been my home for the past three years. Daviess. <\/p>\n

I sensed it would be for good. And I felt it, the fleeting sadness of knowing the great things that had happened here in the past few years were over. Here, I had approached and entered a shining city on a hill. Vincennes University. And here I had conquered the odds and emerged victorious and confident. And now I would leave behind the friendships and relationships that would fade with distance and time. Sure, you tell your friends. We\u2019ll stay in touch, and I\u2019ll be back. But you know it will never be the same. <\/p>\n

I left Daviess on a Monday morning. The sagging T Bird kind of staggered down the highway. I turned to the south and headed out. My destination: Bob Jones University in Greenville, South Carolina. <\/p>\n

Bob Jones University<\/a>. The place that almost rivals the Amish, when it comes to legends and myths. Even back then, I was told. If you tell someone you went to BJU, get ready to duck or pucker. Because you\u2019ll either get slugged or kissed. It hasn\u2019t been quite that bad, but there\u2019s something to the saying. Over the years, I\u2019ve heard just about every rumor there is out there about how things really are on campus. And always, when I heard the stories, I just laughed and shook my head. Where did you hear a thing like that? Are you sure it\u2019s true? Well, let me tell you how it was when I went there, back in 1991-93. And people kind of drew back, astounded. \u201cYou attended there? But you seem so, well, nice. How could a guy like you have come from a place like that?\u201d Maybe because the \u201cplace like that\u201d isn\u2019t quite the ignorant dump you think it is, I thought. But I usually just bit my tongue.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt\u2019s a racist school,\u201d some people snarled contemptuously. \u201cIt\u2019s militaristic,\u201d my liberal friends gasped in horror. But the most persistent myth I\u2019ve run into: \u201cOh, yeah, that\u2019s the place where they have separate sidewalks for guys and girls.\u201d Countless people know that fact without the slightest doubt. Even when I tell them I was there and never saw such a thing, it\u2019s still true, in their minds. It\u2019s all a bit strange. It\u2019s like facts don\u2019t matter. <\/p>\n

I will always be proud to be a BJU grad, and I look back over those years with a lot of fond memories. A few negative things cropped up here and there, sure, but those will come at you in any setting. I walked into BJU mostly intimidated. I\u2019d heard how tough they were academically. And how they had, like, a thousand rules of conduct. But still, I chose to go. Because at that moment, it seemed like the best choice. Or at least the choice I was most comfortable with. <\/p>\n

And looking back, it was almost lackadaisical, how it all worked out that I ended up at BJU. It could have been just about anywhere else. Somehow, though, a few figures I admired in my plain Mennonite world steered me there. Sang the praises of the place. So during my second year at Vincennes, I sent for an application. Filled it out and mailed it in. I was, of course, accepted. Right on, I thought. This will be the place for me. <\/p>\n

The rulebook they sent made me a little uneasy. Dress codes, infinite specific rules of conduct, how long your hair may be, and on and on. I had just emerged from a world of infinite rules, seemed like. But I was more comfortable in a structured setting, I think. However tough the rules, I could take it if I set my mind to it. That\u2019s what I figured. Besides, there were a few other things that that drew me. <\/p>\n

The first and primary thing. I had family in the area. Sister Maggie and brother Jesse and their families lived over close to Abbeville. And Nathan lived and worked in Seneca. All points within an hour\u2019s drive or so. I\u2019d hang out weekends. And that strong pull of family just settled it, in my head. But there was still more.<\/p>\n

I arrived at BJU a few days before my 30th birthday. Students have to live on campus until age 25. After that, they can live off campus and work. Basically have a normal life. And that\u2019s what I planned on doing. And with my head swimming with vague, great dreams, I pulled into Greenville with my loaded T Bird. Eagerly. I was here, whatever might come. And, of course, a few snags jumped up instantly. My planned lodging didn\u2019t work out, and the IHOP restaurant manager who had promised me a waiter job reneged when I walked in. Eventually, though, I found another waiter job at Swenson\u2019s Ice Cream Gazebo, and lodging in a little trailer in a trailer park near the campus. Some kindly, simple guy named Jim had a spare bedroom in his trailer. He\u2019d prayed about it, he told me later, and decided he would rent it out. And I just happened to show up. We had little in common, which I\u2019ve found makes for the best roommates. In daily interaction, we talked and got a glimpse of each others’ world. But otherwise, no expectations. <\/p>\n

It was late August, and it was hot. I timidly walked about the campus, trying to get my bearings. Lots of clean cut people swarmed about. Students, teachers, administrators, and more students. Everyone seemed positive and upbeat. At least they smiled as if they were. And I signed up for my classes, and got ready for the first day. <\/p>\n

It\u2019s a beautiful place, the University. Impeccably groomed grounds. Whatever was done there was done right. That attitude permeated the place. BJU is a fundamentalist Baptist school, where everything is done for the Lord. It\u2019s pretty much a self sufficient campus, complete with hospital, large modern auditorium, the greatest collection of old religious art in the world (or one of them), its own security force complete with cop cars, dorms and class rooms. And I realized on the first day that I wasn\u2019t in Vincennes anymore. Not in any sense, including the quality of the education. Not knocking Vincennes, here. Just saying, a private four-year University is going to be much tougher sailing.<\/p>\n

During my second year at Vincennes, I took 21 hours of classes both semesters. And easily breezed right through. At BJU, I bravely signed up for 18 hours the first semester. Surely I could handle that much. But before the first week ended, I did what I never thought I\u2019d do. I dropped a class, reducing my load to 15 hours. And even that seemed overwhelming. These people smiled and smiled. And then they piled on the work load and upped the expectations. They demanded the very best efforts from all their students. You won\u2019t sail through any classes at BJU. I can guarantee you that. <\/p>\n

And I uneasily settled in to my routine. This was a new place, an entirely new culture. Everyone looked and dressed the same, pretty much. Skirts and blouses for the girls, suits and ties and wingtips or tasseled loafers for the guys, at least until noon. You had to dress up in the morning, which was a serious problem for me. I had never really learned to \u201cdress up\u201d and so my wardrobe was quite limited. A half dozen shirts. Four or five dress pants. But mostly, I dreaded the mornings because I was different. And being \u201cdifferent\u201d was a big part of the reason I could not abide with the Amish. <\/p>\n

I was a member of a plain Mennonite church in Daviess. Where the women wore coverings. And the men wore those detestable straight-cut suit coats with no tie. When I entered BJU, I had never worn a tie. Never, in all my life. I came from a place where sermons were preached about how a tie can only be a symbol of pride. And to their credit, the BJU people made a rare exception in their rigid rules for Mennonites like me. I was allowed to wear the detestable straight-cut suit coat, and no tie. But it was so different and I was so painfully aware of that difference that it almost ruined my first semester. Everyone was staring at me. I could feel it wherever I went. In class. Walking about. And at chapel. As the weeks crept by, I actually nursed in my heart the vague hope that some mild misfortune would befall me, so I could get out of this place with some dignity. Something, anything, that\u2019s what I wished for. Maybe an accident, like a broken arm or leg. That would do it. I could leave and never look back. But no such misfortune ever showed up. So I slogged on, day after dreary, dreadful day. <\/p>\n

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\nIn my plain straight-cut suit with my friend, the lovely Elizabeth Reed.<\/p>\n

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\nBy the fountain inside the front gate sans suit coat, obviously after lunch. <\/p>\n

In the meantime, though, I faithfully trudged to classes every day, too. Kind of found the rhythm of the place. Go to class, find your seat in the back. The professor takes roll call. And then we bow our heads to pray. The professor speaks to God for half a minute. And then it was down to the business of learning. <\/p>\n

I\u2019ve thought about it a lot since then, all that praying going on. And it seemed to me after a month or so that these people weren\u2019t that different from the Amish, not when it came to praying. No, they didn\u2019t use a little black book. But their prayers were rote. How could they not be? I mean, how fresh can a prayer be, how heartfelt can it be when it\u2019s mandated? When it\u2019s just spouted out like clockwork? I might be way off here. I\u2019m not saying the prayers weren\u2019t valid, or that they weren\u2019t heard. But even way back then, I recognized the formula of the prayers on campus. <\/p>\n

And every week day morning around 10:30 or so, the entire student body trudged off to chapel in the huge modern new auditorium. Forty-five minutes or so. That\u2019s how long it lasted. Attendance was mandatory, of course. You had your assigned seat, and ushers checked at every service to make sure you were there unless you had a valid excuse. I\u2019m not knocking the practice. Not at all. I soon reached the point where I actually looked forward to chapel services, because the quality and depth of the preaching was so far beyond anything I had ever heard before. <\/p>\n

And I heard all the guys who were anyone back in those days. Dr. Bob Jones, Jr. was a grizzled bent old man in his 80s, but he could sure punch out a good sermon. He roared like a lion and cooed like a dove. Hellfire and brimstone. Come to Jesus. It was old time southern preaching from a century ago, and I feel privileged to have heard it from him. And we heard Dr. Bob Jones III, too, a tall gaunt man with a rather harsh rasping voice. His sermons tended toward vitriolic diatribes against the evil Catholic Church and the occasional broadside against the \u201cfalse teachings\u201d of Billy Graham. These guys were exclusionary, oh yes, they were. Which I\u2019ve never had a problem with, because that\u2019s what freedom of religion is. The freedom not only to worship as you see fit, but also the freedom to exclude. <\/p>\n

And I heard, too, the sermons of various local preachers and the many Preacher Boys in training at BJU. It was quite an honor for them, I learned, to get asked to preach at chapel. And for the first time in my life, I grasped what it was to really dig into the Scriptures. Amish sermons are mostly extemporaneous, often rambling. The Mennonites I had joined were a little more prepared with their sermons, but still, they tended to bebop all over the place, while preaching a lot of light fluffy stuff with neat little lessons wrapped up at the end. Not the BJU guys. They got up there behind the podium and belted out an entire half hour sermon, not from one chapter. But from one verse, sometimes. And sometimes one phrase from one verse. I marveled at it all, the apologetics of Christian Fundamentalism. And I absorbed their words. <\/p>\n

And while I thought their messages edged to the harsher side of Christianity, I didn\u2019t fuss unduly in my mind. I would take from this place what I could, and apply it to my life. And besides, I wasn\u2019t quite sure where I stood on many peripheral issues. Hey, I would be here for two years. Then I\u2019d move on, back to my little Mennonite world. That was my plan back then. Maybe I could even tell them about this marvelous in-depth preaching I had heard at BJU (that\u2019s a joke).<\/p>\n

There was one aspect of their teachings that bugged me, though. And that was their eschatology. Their end-times teachings. BJU is (or was back then) stridently pre-tribulation rapture. Jesus is returning very soon, maybe even today or tonight. We\u2019ll all get raptured out, to meet Him in midair, Dr. Bob III would thunder. Then the great tribulation will be unleashed upon the earth. Satan will take over the whole world. He\u2019ll take over this University, too, and use it for his evil purposes. But we\u2019ll be with God, up there, so it won\u2019t matter what Satan does down here. <\/p>\n

But wait a minute, I thought, even back then. If Jesus is coming back soon, maybe tonight, for sure by next week, next month, or maybe even as late as next year, why are we at this University? Why am I paying you for an education? Why are you demanding my best efforts in my classes? What sense does that make? Why plan for the future, why study for the future, why get a degree for the future, if it will all be for naught? I couldn\u2019t grasp it, quite, that line of thinking. And it still makes no sense to me. <\/p>\n

And it\u2019s still one of the most short-sighted, destructive teachings in all of Christendom, that pre-trib rapture stuff. My opinion. And it\u2019s certainly not exclusive to the BJU people. It\u2019s embraced by millions of Christians from many denominations, people who cling to the desperate hope that somehow they won\u2019t have to die. To all of them, I\u2019ll say this. Stop fretting about the end of the world, or about Christ\u2019s return. Get on with living your life with joy in this moment. And instruct your children as if they will have a long life, too, and a productive future. Stop hoping not to die. I believe that every person alive today and those to come for generations to come will one day die. And if I\u2019m wrong, hey, I’ll gladly concede my error in midair. What I’m saying is, concern yourself with your own life, and your heart before God. The \u201cend of the world\u201d will come for each of us when we pass from this earth. <\/p>\n

By the time the first semester ended, I was just stepping into full stride. I came through with decent grades, mostly A\u2019s. And I changed my major from English Education to straight English, against the advice of my professors. \u201cWhat will you do with an English degree?\u201d They asked. I don\u2019t know and I don\u2019t care, I said. I want to study real literature here. I want to absorb the great works of the past. They backed off, then. And I walked forward into the classes my heart instinctively cried for, the classics. Shakespeare. Dante\u2019s Inferno. Milton. The major poets. Marvell. Pope. Keats. Shelley. And Emily Dickinson, one of my favorites. American literature. Mark Twain. William Cullen Bryant\u2019s Thanatopsis<\/em>. Faulkner, who ran with his coon hounds and hick country buddies at night, and churned out his brilliant stuff during the day. And on and on. I devoured it all. Guided by some of the greatest teachers I have ever known. <\/p>\n

And after that first semester, my detestable straight-cut suit coat never bothered me again. I was who I was. I made friends, both with my teachers and many students. Some few of those relationships still remain decently strong today, twenty years later. <\/p>\n

At the beginning of my second year, almost exactly twenty years ago, I stumbled upon the greatest literary voice ever to emerge from the American landscape. Thomas Wolfe. I didn\u2019t meet him in the classroom. I just randomly picked up a ragged paperback copy of You Can\u2019t Go Home Again<\/em> at a used book store. I took the book home and opened it. Began to read. And from the first page, I was hooked. Between classes and work I devoured the book in the next week. I stumbled about, my head in a daze, barely conscious of the world outside those pages. His powerful, passionate soaring prose spoke to me like none other ever had. Stirred something deep inside. Absorbing it all, I sensed the innate knowledge in my heart that one day I, too, would write my story. I had no clue when or how. It was just a thing I knew. <\/p>\n

There were so many good things about BJU, not least their high appreciation for the arts. The University was saturated with performance art. Shakespeare plays of the highest quality, with faculty and students playing all the roles. Internationally acclaimed orchestras appeared twice a year or so. Opera, performed by professionals. And classical music in all its forms. And we were required to attend. To which I thought, what? Required to attend? You couldn\u2019t keep me away. To me, it was a huge privilege. And I went, sometimes with a girl, dressed in my straight-cut suit, and just drank it all in. Those moments remain among my most cherished memories of BJU. <\/p>\n

And life in general bumped along. Every fall, when the students return, the University holds several nights of \u201crevival\u201d meetings in the big new auditorium. Good old home gospel preaching for the lost. And during those meetings, they fully expect people to stand, to recommit, to be saved if lost. Maybe even be re-saved. Dr. Bob Jr. officiated over both of the annual revivals I attended. <\/p>\n

And he preached the gospel. Because Christ was proclaimed. But at the end, he unleashed some of the most manipulative methods I have ever encountered. Just to get people to stand. He was determined that all 6,000 people in the auditorium would be standing before he closed out the final night. First, he called out for the lost. If you don\u2019t know Jesus, you can know Him tonight. Won\u2019t you stand? We have people standing by, to lead you through those steps. And that was fine. But then, it was on to other goals. Do you have sin in your life? Unconfessed sin? It\u2019s not too late. Tonight is the night. And a great many people stood. And then it was if you want to be a better witness for Christ, stand. Who can resist that? And so on and on, all the way out to where if you didn\u2019t stand, you were admitting that you were lost.<\/p>\n

The first year, of course, I leaped to my feet at some point late. By the second year, though, I was in no frame of mind to be led by a nose chain like a common simpleton. I wouldn\u2019t do it just because everyone else was. I dug in, irritated. Whatever he said, I wasn\u2019t going to be manipulated. Not this time. I would not stand. And I didn\u2019t, as the drama intensified. His final call. Unless you are not a Christian, stand. I sat there stubbornly. I could feel the eyes around me. No. I will not stand. I will not. Dr. Bob Jr. closed it out then with a prayer that encompassed every soul in whatever state. Including mine. And there I sat. <\/p>\n

As we were dismissed, one guy behind me came up and tapped my shoulder. Smiled hesitantly. \u201cHere\u2019s my phone number,\u201d he said, handing me a little torn slip of paper. \u201cCall me.\u201d Nope, I replied. I\u2019m fine. And I walked out of there in my detestable straight-cut suit coat, the only Mennonite in the place. And one of the few deemed \u201clost.\u201d I also emerged with a new perspective of how things really are sometimes. And so my second year began. <\/p>\n

A place like BJU could not function without toadies. Students who cozy up as aides to the big poobahs, students who are \u201cgroomed\u201d for leadership. Toadies are universally despised by the average students. And toadies are also indispensible, to keep the system running smoothly. Especially the system of demerits. <\/p>\n

There were demerits for just about any imaginable offense. You could get a demerit for thinking wrong, I think. But mostly it was stuff like being late for class, not showing up for daily chapel service (we all had assigned seats, and ushers checked to make sure they were filled), to the more serious but not unheard of stuff like drinking, smoking, and touching someone of the opposite sex. You were never, never supposed to be alone with anyone of the opposite sex, in any room or place, anywhere. But probably the most detested of all demerits, at least for the guys, was the dreaded weekly (or biweekly, I can’t remember) \u201chair check\u201d when you walked into chapel for the morning service.<\/p>\n

You never knew for sure which day would be hair check day. Sometimes the word buzzed that it was such and such a morning. But you could always tell as you approached the entrance to the massive auditorium. Extra toadies with craning necks stood on each side. And as you walked by, you could feel their eyes, scanning your hairline from the back, checking to make sure your hair wasn\u2019t a shade too long. <\/p>\n

And one morning, during my fourth and final semester there, I got nailed. A tap on my shoulder. I turned in surprise. I\u2019d never been bothered before. An ugly little toadie stood there, in shabby suit and tie, frozen smile and all. \u201cYour hair won\u2019t pass\u201d, he said. He handed me a ticket. Five demerits. I stood there, outraged and appalled. My hair was not too long. I didn\u2019t say anything to the toadie, that wouldn\u2019t have gotten me anywhere. But I seethed silently. And that afternoon I stopped by the Dean of Student\u2019s office. <\/p>\n

The Dean, a lean gravelly-voiced humorless man whose name I don\u2019t remember, was back in his inner sanctum and unavailable, his toadie told me. What could he do for me? I presented my demerit ticket. I got it this morning. Look. I turned around and pointed to my hair line. It\u2019s not too long. It\u2019s not. I want to see the Dean to get the ticket reversed. The toadie smiled patronizingly.<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s not possible. He can\u2019t be disturbed right now,\u201d he said. His name was Henry, if I recall right. I stood there stubbornly. Then I\u2019ll wait, I said. I\u2019m graduating this spring, and I have never gotten a single demerit. I don\u2019t want one now, not for a judgment call like this. I\u2019ll wait.<\/p>\n

Henry was perturbed, not used to such blatant obtuseness. \u201cLook, the ticket is what it is,\u201d he protested. Then I\u2019ll wait for the Dean, I said. And back and forth we went, for a few minutes. When he finally grasped that I was really not going anywhere, he suddenly reached out, took the vile little slip of paper and tore it in half. \u201cAll right, then, there you go,\u201d he said resignedly. \u201cI\u2019ll make sure it\u2019s struck from the records.\u201d You\u2019re the man, I said, shaking his hand. Thanks very much. And I was out of there, before the Dean could appear and mess it all up again.<\/p>\n

I never did get a single demerit. Not in my two years there. It\u2019s such a rare and shining achievement that Dr. Bob III sent me a personally signed letter of congratulation after I left. One day, I think, I will frame that letter. If I can dig it out from wherever. <\/p>\n

In the summer of 1993, I graduated from Bob Jones University Magna Cum Laude with a degree in English and a minor in History. A degree that was not even accredited. BJU refuses accreditation from any government entity. They reject it out of hand. Leave us alone. We are doing our work, as we see fit. We are training the next generation of our people. And that\u2019s a thing I respect and understand and admire. I value my time spent there. I would stack a BJU education against any university in this country, when it comes to academic standards. And I will always defend their right to be just exactly who they are. <\/p>\n

The Lord\u2019s vineyards are scattered everywhere. And Bob Jones University is one of those. The people there are serving Him to the best of their knowledge and their faith. Sure, they might not be as exclusive, not as special as they like to believe they are. But that\u2019s OK. They labor there in obscurity, all those professors, and all those administrators, in the vineyard to which they have been called. I will always respect them for that. <\/p>\n

The world is a funny place sometimes. You step out and start off on a path, not quite sure if it\u2019s really the right one. But you strike out on the journey, and push through to the end. And years later, you look back and realize that whether or not it was precisely the right path, it was one you would not change if you could. <\/p>\n

That\u2019s me, looking back on my entire experience at Bob Jones University. I would not change a single moment in that stretch of the journey, not even if I could. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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